*I started writing this at the beginning of the new year but then I was ill, so I'm sorry for the delay*
Well hello there, how are we all? I once again find myself returning from a hiatus but I feel like this time I'll be back for a while!!
So we are now officially in a new year - 2017, and do you know what? I think it's going to be my year, I'm feeling really positive about it (not a forced positive but genuinely optimistic, almost excited!). I'm ready to fight, to take my life in the right direction, to make the changes that are going to get me closer to the person I want to be (not the old me because I know I've changed and so has my life) and I'm going to show PND that I am in control of my life. I watched 'The Holiday' over the festive period and there was a quote I absolutely loved - Arthur Abbot (an elderly famous screenwriter from the golden age of Hollywood, played by Eli Wallach) says to Kate Winslet's character Iris:
"Iris in the movies we have leading ladies and we have the best friend. You I can tell are a leading lady, but for some reason you are behaving like the best friend."
To which Iris replies:
"You're so right. You're supposed to be the leading lady of your own life, for God's sake!
Arthur I've been going to a therapist for three years, and she's never explained anything to me that well. That was brilliant. Brutal, but brilliant."
So I'm going to be the leading lady of my life!! And a leading lady deserves to be treated well, to be taken care of and for me that has to come from within (and from me alone)! I can't keep holding my breath waiting for the hard times to pass or for the weight to magically drop off because that's never going to happen. I have to start being kinder to myself in so many ways. Remembering that I am only human and that yes change takes time but it also takes self compassion and belief (and also a truckload of hard work), I know it's not going to happen overnight but I want to end 2017 happier and healthier! So with that in mind I decided to write 17 goals (instead of resolutions) for 2017 and I'm going to plug away at them slowly, putting no pressure on myself or any real deadlines. Here they are ~
- Get rid of E's dummy.
- Spend more quality time with E.
- Have more patience.
- Feel healthy.
- Kick PND's butt.
- Feel happy with myself - inside and out.
- Be more confident.
- Try new things.
- Keep the house clean and tidy.
- Stick to a routine.
- Be more productive.
- Get more sleep.
- Feel more in shape.
- See things in a positive light.
- Use a gratitude jar.
- Be more organised.
- Prepare for Christmas earlier.
What are your New Years resolutions or goals?
I shall be back very soon, I promise!! In the meantime feel free to comment, share or both. Xoxo